You're here...finally...truly...
It was a long and difficulte journey. I didn't know I'd have to have a C-section, or that you would have some difficulties with meconium before you were born. I couldn't have ever dreamed you'd weigh 9 lbs. 3 oz. or that you'd have so much hair!
I feel so ill-prepared. Nothing I've read, nothing anyone told me has prepared me for this exhilerating, frightening, amazing moment. Our family is no longer 'just us two.' Three human beings make up our circle of love now. You aren't just a little sensation in my belly anymore - you are a little person with needs, wants, emotions, expressions, and personality. I didn't anticipate how clearly I would see that personality nor how soon. You are a people-person already; you always want to be held and talked to, and you hate being left alone, even when you're sleeping. You don't curl up in the fetal position like most newborns...you stretch out, sometimes as straight as a board when you're upset. Your little cry is so funny, yet it tugs at my heartstrings immediately. I didn't know how much your cry would affect me. It motivates me to act at once - I can't delay a second in trying to find out what is wrong and how I can fix it.
What amazes me most is how much I can love someone I just met.
Saturday, October 15, 2005
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